Echoes Unforgiven

Echoes

Whisperings in the dark part of my mind

Flash, Flash Flash Flash!! Pain.

Incoherent phrases, pictures

And then it was over.

Again and again, night after night

Never leaving me, a constant companion

Sleep, I could never sleep.

Why, Why, Why, Why!

A personal torment.

Who is that laughing god

Why this terrible price?

I shouldn’t have done it, I knew that

I see their faces, all of those faces

Filled, through and through with agony

Whisperings turn to screams

Deafening me, incapacitating me

Never letting me have peace

Peace, Peace!?

I don't even remember

What would that feel like?

Smile, smile and pretend

Pretend like everything's okay

Smile through my anguish

They don’t need to know

They can’t have this on them.

I won't let this hurt them.

This is my burden, my pain

No one deserves this on them

I do this for you

Forgive me.

j.h.

Tributes

Tributes

Warriors, Heroes, Legends

Leaders, Brave, Believing

Somehow I just know

Somehow, it all comes back to me

The battle, the fear, the pain

How could I have forgotten?

Why did I forget

Kindness, Compassion, Hope

Hope, Hope, Hope!

Times like this, it isn't

Easy, wondering when things

Will go back to normal

Normal I don't remember

What that feels like

Not to hear the gasping of someone's 

Last breath

Not to see their lives fall out

Out, out, out of their eyes

Hero? I was never the hero

Never the one ready to make that sacrifice

You were always the one, you

Always were there to save me

I watched you die

I watched as your life flew

Flew! Out of your eyes as you

Saved me once again

Why didn't you just leave me

Why just that once couldn't you been

Selfish thought about yourself

If I hadn't been weak

If only I hadn't gone in to try

You would still be alive 

You would be with your family

Living a life that you deserved

I'm Sorry, so so so Sorry

It was my fault . . . all my fault

j.h.