There was no point in delaying. I have to do this. No, I can't think of anything but this mission. It's my own fault for falling-in-love on a mission. Especially a kill mission, you CAN'T fall-in-love. That's just a big no-no. I couldn't help it he was just so kind and UGH! I don't think I can go through with this, I'll just lose my head. That is a better fate than me having to kill him. I've made my choice I can't do it, I don't think I ever could. Now I'll just wait for him to come to find me, to finish me off. At least the last thing I'll see before I die will be his eyes. It's stupid, utter stupidity to fall-in-love with a target. Falling-in-love with the enemy? Now that is just suicidal. I suppose I'm suicidal then, at least I got to feel real love one time in my miserable life. At least I found love once.
j.h.
