You never told me you were struggling.
Never said that you needed someone.
You never reached out,
so how was I supposed to know
that you needed help?
I'm not a mind-reader.
I can't just know what you're going through.
You need to tell me.
You need to talk to me.
Maybe I should have noticed you pulling away,
maybe I should've tried harder to get you to talk to me.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe.
But this is the past, and I can't do anything now.
You're gone and I miss you and our memories.
Sometimes I wish I had said a better goodbye.
Said something more.
Sometimes I wish I could've helped you.
I wish, I hope, I pray that you find the help you need.
I'm sorry you couldn't find it with me.
I'm sorry you feel like I abandoned you.
I'm sorry that you felt like you couldn't trust me.
I never wanted you to ever feel that way.
So, this is my goodbye.
My goodbye to our happy memories.
My goodbye to our friendship.
My final farewell to you.
Goodbye, bitch. :)
j.h
Tuesday, March 19, 2019
Sunday, March 17, 2019
Comfort Zone
You know the funny thing about comfort zones?
They feel like home.
I know, I know we've all heard the
"Get out of your comfort zone" speech.
This is not it.
Since coming to college
I don't think I've ever been in my comfort zone.
Sure I've taken a few things here and there
that is like my comfort zone.
But I've never really been there.
Every day there is something new
I have to experience, I have to battle.
And it's EXHAUSTING!
A new laugh, A new smile
Just to get through the day.
There are some days
where I know I can take on anything
and I'm ready to.
But of course, there are also the days
where I feel left out, alone and unable to keep moving forward.
I've been having a lot of those days lately.
It could be the fact that it has been winter and dark.
But I think it's because I feel like no matter what I do,
I'll never get back to my comfort zone home again.
I know that its a stupid fear. I know that.
I can't help but feel it though.
Recently I hung out with my best friends.
They reminded me what it felt like
to be in my comfort zone.
They helped me feel like I was home again.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
You'll never know how much that has meant to me.
j.h
They feel like home.
I know, I know we've all heard the
"Get out of your comfort zone" speech.
This is not it.
Since coming to college
I don't think I've ever been in my comfort zone.
Sure I've taken a few things here and there
that is like my comfort zone.
But I've never really been there.
Every day there is something new
I have to experience, I have to battle.
And it's EXHAUSTING!
A new laugh, A new smile
Just to get through the day.
There are some days
where I know I can take on anything
and I'm ready to.
But of course, there are also the days
where I feel left out, alone and unable to keep moving forward.
I've been having a lot of those days lately.
It could be the fact that it has been winter and dark.
But I think it's because I feel like no matter what I do,
I'll never get back to my comfort zone home again.
I know that its a stupid fear. I know that.
I can't help but feel it though.
Recently I hung out with my best friends.
They reminded me what it felt like
to be in my comfort zone.
They helped me feel like I was home again.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
You'll never know how much that has meant to me.
j.h
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