what is love?

I am a hopeless romantic 
without the romantic...

so really I am just hopeless.

A useless, desperate, ineffective case,

a mess,

a mistake

A friend told me that I still

am a hopeless romantic

they said that I just buried that part of me

I think that part of me is gone

I don't think she is going to be back

j.h.

3rd time

there is something so wrong with me

1:
he ghosted me, like legitly but I was the one who basically told him that the date sucked. why did I do that? why was I so cruel? we could have worked I wanted it to work I wanted someone to want me. how pathetic is that?

2:

he told me that he wasn't looking for anyone. that he wanted to focus on school. all valid points and I would have fully believed him if I didn't find him on a dating app later on. was I too aggressive that he felt like he had to lie to me?

3:

the third time's the charm right? there is still time. there is still hope. 

j.h.