What if he came to you and confessed that he has been hiding his feelings for you from you. What would you do? If he came and said that he made a mistake. That he wasn't ready before but he is now. That he wants to try with you and see where things go? What would you say?
I would say this.
"Hey, I really appreciate you coming and telling me this.
I truly admire your bravery and courage.
I think you are amazing and really deserve all the best this world has to offer.
So ... I know that I am not it for you.
I am selfish
jealous
clingy
and needy.
You deserve more than that.
And I deserve someone who will give me the attention that I need
because I will not fight for your attention.
I won't.
And I know you wouldn't do it on purpose.
You are just so
caring
and loving
You are always the first one to volunteer to help.
You are just so full of good that eventually you'd leave me alone.
You're reliable.
I love and hate that about you.
I know that it is honestly so messed up in my thinking
to be jealous of the people
who need your help.
but I am.
Because there will always be that one person
who won't ever stop asking you for help and I'll start to hate them.
So, thank you for telling me that you'd like to try with me
but no. Go find someone that you deserve.
That person isn't me."
It hurts to think about this.
That one day I may find someone that I really really like but will have to let him go.
Doesn't the phrase go
"If you love them, let them go"
j.h.
