Haven't I

So much depends
upon
the MONSTERS within
me
Crying to come
out
behind my smirking
face

For,

I led to
annihilation
destruction was my
playground
forever leading to
insanity

You wish to
forgive
me, of all
people
leading you down
there

"There" was a
place
of hopelessness, despair
greed
of so many
sorrows

Left to be
untold
forgotten or rejected
woes
in the lost
meadows

Please leave me
be
All I've wanted
PEACE
from hurts I've
caused

But that is
nevermore
I've lost every
chance
for forgiveness, from
you

Haven't I?

j.h.