Mission

I will be gone for 18 months.
I don't know if I am ready.
I know that going on a mission is the right thing to do.
I know that.
I really do.
So, why am I so nervous?
Why am I so scared?
There are so many What if situations that could go wrong.
And knowing me?
They'll all happen.

I will be gone for 18 months.
I will learn so many things.
About myself, people and the Lord.
I want to learn.

Things will be different when I come back.
Sometimes I feel like I don't want to go.
I don't want to leave the familiar.
I don't want to come back and see that everything changed.
I don't want to miss out on things.

When I come back will my friends still want to be friends with me?
Or will I have become too changed?

I will be gone for 18 months.
I will be gone a lifetime.

j.h.